Ideas tumble, refusing to sit still; perhaps I should keep mum,
Allow the endless circling, but only hidden in my brain,
No exit given, no train of thought to lead a merry dance from A to B:
Just block ‘em in and push ‘em down until they pass without being given voice…
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Too late! It seems they’ve found the fire escape,
They’re running down the stairs without a backward glance!
You thought Pandora’s box was troublesome?
Please meet this crowd of feelings finding words,
Unmarshalled phrases milling round and arguments jostling for a place:
“Use me!” “I know this script!” “I want a turn!”
While rearguard common sense sighs,
“Please behave! I’m meant to be in charge.
I am the one who sets the scene, directs,
Decides who takes the lead or gets a walk-on part”
And why, what for? What motive drives this farce, this tragi-comic soapsud-opera,
The irresistible compulsion to make such tidy records of the mind?
Behold, conclusions birthed of desperation in the search for truth!
Salted with meaning, peppered with comfort, spiced with pathos –
And as a by-product, perhaps some entertainment for voyeurs!
Roll up, roll up! It’s pure creative force!
And makes a thrilling mystery-drama, if you follow it –
This mother’s story, worth it’s weight in tears.
Perhaps you’ll empathise and find some clues and keys,
Or some refreshment from this fermentation of my heart uncorked
And poured into a glass of words to raise a toast to hope and faith and love
🙂
Perhaps you’ll just enjoy the ride: I do and actually that’s enough.
I am not really in control,
I make some choices – who knows why –
The script’s been learned already, I must play it out
Impulsively, intuitively, far more than prudently.
An open vein, the open heart, my life-blood in creative form,
Inspired, uninvited thoughts so often tangentially
GATECRASHING my clever plans
But all designed, of course, to give the best effect…
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We all know ‘front of house’ means ‘backstage’ too,
Creative license is allowed, however true the tale,
Not lying, merely manufacturing with words – just as an actor does in theatre.
The really raw material’s behind the scenes, so’s not to spoil the show.
While viewers are admitted – indeed most welcome, one and all! –
They’re always sent away at curtain down…
Unless you have a pass to meet the stars when make-up’s been removed,
Extraordinary access so that you can question the director on her cut.
And who will watch this play?
It’s free for all, but I can’t make the call.
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